I try to effect people’s lives in a positive way. I hope more than ever that people do not ruin their lives on dumb things and do not listen to what their friends think is cool. If you are going to ruin your life, do it on your own. Do not be influenced by your friends. Do not let them ruin your life. I just hope that when I speak (seriously) that they will listen and remember the words that I say. I know I can not make an impact on the world but I do hope I can have an impact on a life.
SHALOM
Hey there it’s good to see you again,
It never felt right calling this just friends,
I’m happy if your happy with yourself,
Take off your shirt your shoes,
Those skinny jeans I bought for you,
We’re diving in there’s nothing left to lose,
I’m gonna break down these walls I built around myself,
I wanna fall so in love (so in love) with you and no one else,
Could ever mean half as much to me as you do now,
Together well move on, just don’t turn around,
Let the walls break down,
I used to wear you like a ball and chain,
I’d run and hide at the call of my name,
It was obvious you were to much for me,
Oblivious, I was young and horny,
In retrospect I wouldn’t do it again,
Stop talking shit to every one of your friends,
I’m not the same boy you knew back then,
Cause I could break down these walls I built around myself,
I wanna fall so in love (so in love) with you and no one else,
Could ever mean half as much to me as you do now,
Together we’ll move on, just don’t turn around,
Let the walls break,
I can’t breathe my body’s shaking,
Got away with the way you take me,
Cause you break me down,
You know you break me down,
I’m gonna break down these walls I built around myself,
I wanna fall so in love (so in love) with you and no one else,
Could ever mean half as much to me as you do now,
Together well move on just don’t turn around,
Let the walls break down,
Tear down these walls I built around myself,
Let the walls break down,
Tear down these walls,
Cause you break me down (cause you break me down cause you break me down),
Let the walls break down
-ALL TIME LOW
Maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe… it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is… just… moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.
-He’s Just Not That Into You
I believe this is very true.
As my brother told me, you learn stuff from every relationship. If you don’t have “bad” relationships then you won’t realize how special some people are.
I love to be free and do what I want. I’m ready to party and get back to my old self. I’ve been getting back to my old passion, music and singing. It makes me feel better and I like that. I am going to live life and see where it takes me.
It was one hundred degrees
As we sat beneath a willow tree
Whose tears didn’t care
They just hung in the air
And refused to fall, to fall
And I knew I’d made a horrible call
And now the state line felt
Like the Berlin wall
And there was no doubt
About which side I was on
‘Cause I built you a home in my heart
With rotten wood, it decayed from the start
‘Cause you can’t find nothing at all
If there was nothing there all along
No you can’t find nothing at all
If there was nothing there all along
I braved treacherous streets
And kids strung out
On homemade speed
And we shared a bed
In which I could not sleep at all
‘Cause at night the sun in retreat
Made the skyline look
Like crooked teeth
In the mouth of a man
Who was devouring, us both
You’re so cute when you’re slurring your speech
But they’re closing the bar and they want us to leave
And you can’t find nothing at all
If there was nothing there all along
No you can’t find nothing at all
If there was nothing there all along
I’m a war of head versus heart
And it’s always this way
My head is weak, my heart always speaks
Before I know what it will say
And you can’t find nothing at all
If there was nothing there all along
No you can’t find nothing at all
If there was nothing there all along
And you can’t find nothing at all
If there was nothing there all along
There were churches, theme parks and malls
But there was nothing there all along.
Relationships come and go, but some last forever in our hearts. Love promotes the most intense and fervid passion in ones being. We learn to love our whole lives and when we find someone to share our passion with, it creates a magnificent devotion. Love is a risk. So take a chance and open the soul to the unknown world, it may reveal a stupendous surprise.Love is like a tree, it is strong, beautiful and we need it to survive. Every love story is different, the ending as well as the journey is always a mystery.
As I sat in my school desk, I admired a boy from afar, I exclaimed that he will be mine. It all started with a crush. I saw him walk down the halls of my high school and walk right past me. He was unaware of my school girl crush, but soon found out that he had a crush on me too. Finally, we met through some friends and went on a date to Kids Castle and Ci Ci’s Pizza. He was a total gentlemen. He paid for me, which I did not expect. He was a quiet boy who listened to everything I said but never really told me about anything. Until one day, two months later, he opened up and cracked a joke with me. For the first time I saw his true colors and I was intrigued.This opened up a door way that lead to our journey in life together. Both of us not use to commitment ended up with our first longest relationships. Crazy to think we did not know each other and now we can not image our lives without one another. Our love brought us to tears of pure happiness and was undeniable. We have become each others best friend. We cared about each others day and feelings on any subject. Not only are we there for one another on serious matters, but we could laugh for hours about nothing. An innocent crush turned into a love so strong that it will stay with us forever, no matter where life takes us.
One hot summer day he took me to a huge willow tree in a field next to a parking lot. We walked underneath the tree and he leaned in to kiss me. I was scared and tried to move back but one of the trees branches was behind me and stopped me, forcing me to touch lips with his. I took it as a sign from God to just do it. It last only a few seconds and I realize I just had my first kiss. The willow tree was a symbol of our love and always reminded me of us. It was a start of a new beginning and I was pleased that I was with someone so wonderful and faithful. He was truly the perfect man. From that day on, we grew together and became as one.
We never had “our song” but we have our songs that we would obnoxiously scream the lyrics to in the car with the windows down. We felt the wind in our hair ; it brushed up against our faces as we danced while sitting. We never felt so alive, just being teenagers having a teenage romance. Those songs such as, “That’s Not My Name” by “The Ting Tings” and “You Belong With Me” by “Taylor Swift” made up the play list of our lives together. We felt so comfortable to be ourselves and it felt so natural. We did not have to put on a show for anyone. We were just being ourselves.
Out of no where the unthinkable could happen in a blink of an eye. Three days after our one year, he said the words no girl ever wants to hear, “It’s over”. There was no warning. At first, I did not feel a thing. I thought, I am fine. Then two days later, It just hit me like a ton of bricks. After I saw “The Time Traveler’s Wife” I realized how much I truly loved him. As I cried, I saw my mascara on my pillow case and a puddle form from my tears. It was like a scene from a romance movie with a plot twist that no one expected.
I just received my first true heart break. Although it was devastating, I do not regret any of our time together and will always love him. I never thought it would end like this but as all love stories go, I took the risk for a mysterious journey and I am not disappointed. I am about to start a new chapter in my life and have no idea what to expect but i am ready for the new challenges that are going to face me. This was just a battle to over come and I left it with great memories that will be with me forever. Mystery is the type of genre every love story is under. The ending is unsure but the journey is well worth it.
